Doors and Windows
Having had a few recent brief conversations with someone who has a similar outlook on life, I find myself struggling to understand the motivations of the majority of others that I encounter.
I understand that my past forced me to grow up quicker and also isolated me more but I cannot understand the distinct disconnect between what people want and just how far they’re willing to work for it.
You think you’re going to live a fancy life by sitting on the couch watching Netflix or playing video games? I get it, comfort is king. But at some point, don’t you think about how you’re going to get where you want to go? Success requires action. I can’t stand seeing people trap themselves into a situation because nothing more is required of them. Have some personal standards that are above and beyond those required, some enhanced goals.
I started a photography website that didn’t go anywhere. Was it a waste of time or was it preparing me for Instagram? I started a blog website connecting my personal brand. Was it a waste of time? Or did it assist me in being asked to come to a meeting at an agency without applying for a job there?
I sat in an oversized blue chair writing a poem about the fallacy of tough guys wearing pink and sent it to a small call for submissions. Waste of time? To be published, to be continually performed, to be a part of strengthening queer youth voices and changing perspectives, definitely not a waste of time.
I had a goal this year to get three state fair ribbons for photography. I didn’t get any. Waste of time? I’ll possibly get notified in the next few weeks about having my third photo in the local museum this year.
I was refused entry into kindergarten, was supposed to be in special education. Had a full-time nurse in the classroom Kindergarten, first, and second grades. Went to physical therapy before school in first and second grade. Failed eighth grade, begged my parents not to hold me back. Honor roll my first semester of high school. Supposed to finish high school in five years due to ongoing surgeries, finished on time. Finished my associate degree in 2.5 years due to two surgeries in the same semester, going back to school with drains in my head. Going to Milwaukee twice a week in college. Worked third shift at Festival Foods while taking tech classes, paid off my loan then saved for grad school. Turned down UMTC in ’09 at $60K. Two years later entered grad school which took three years after fighting the university due to discrimination of disabled students.
Stop living in a comfy prison cell watching shadows dance on the walls and go get a real life. Fight for everything and end up with something worth the fight.
Relentless Advance.
