failure

I’ve been on a diet for four weeks now. Having done this for the last four years, I still fail to have the right mental time frame for achieving my goal. I decided to extend my goal to May as it coincides with my half birthday which I tend to celebrate more than my actual birthday.

In the past four weeks of diet and gym time I’ve been stuck between 137 & 138 pounds on the scale. Though my body composition has changed dramatically in four weeks. I see size and definition in my arms and the beginning of quad separation.

I’ve had to remind myself about patience. Too many goals last week and this coming week that I’ve been overwhelmed. The news that I don’t need new tires and don’t need to take a chunk out of my savings has been a welcome relief.

I think as an introvert I engage in a lot of different creative outlets to express myself in place of spoken words. I also obsessively over think things through. I have my job, my creative writing, my photography, my baking, my fitness…overall a drive to keep going. A drive to accomplish different things and express myself through different outlets.

No one these days really speaks up about their failures. I think a world that ignores failure is detrimental to this new phenomenon of entrepreneurs or rather pseudo-entrepreneurs in an economic uptick.

I took January off from studying for my second attempt at the LCSW exam. I ordered some more study materials and am in the process of rescheduling my exam retake for April. In the pergatory of the time between failure and victory, comes patience and silent action.

How you act after a failed attempt shows your true colors. My colors don’t run unless they’re made out of frosting!